[It's hard for her to resist running her fingers over his gray ears because it's okay is something she wants to express to him. The way he's curling up, like he's trying to hide from her, is something she doesn't understand. But he's a shy cat. One that can get grumpy when he's hungry and only has flakes of sugar between his paws. A cat that doesn't worry about grooming himself or think about how his feet hurt against the rough ground because his first concern is her getting home.
A very good boy.
She doesn't move her hands until he grasps them and keeps her fingers tight around his for as long as he allows. It's enough he finally held her hand for that moment. It makes her happy.]
And ESP kitty too.
[Because it's not goodbye.
And she doesn't need to feel his heart to understand that this hurts him. He's losing his friend. Asking her to take care of a companion that could've given him comfort after monkey attacks and scary nights alone and it's-
A way to feel safe and have a constant source of comfort in the form of a friend that should be staying by his side. She knows the cat belongs in his lap, not hers. Belongs outside his house, not outside her shared tent. Knows his soft purr should be there for Ichimatsu to hear in the morning.
It's why a real answer is hard to muster up, though she was eager only seconds before. She knows the cat should be with Ichimatsu. Definitely wants to say it. But the purr reaches her ear and her fingers don't stop stroking the cat's soft back. She doesn't move to push the cat away and instead, shuts her eyes for a moment.
It makes her think if she keeps them closed and turns her head, just a bit, Seto might be right next to her. With a toy, a warm hand, and a smile that reminds her of the first day they met because he was always happy to see her.
It's a nice feeling.]
If it starts to hurt and you get very lonely, it's okay. I'll come find you. [Pause] We'll come find you.
[Her eyes open and her fingers stop stroking the cat's back because she wants to reach out for Ichimatsu's hand, just one more time. If he lets her, she doesn't do much-just rests her hand over his, not grasping it or trying to intertwine their fingers. She just wants to let him know he never has to be alone either. She's got a warm hand too that he can reach out for at any time.]
Thank you, Murasaki.
[And then-]
Murasaki-chan.
[GOOD BOYS DESERVE GOOD, INAPPROPRIATE HONORFICS.]
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A very good boy.
She doesn't move her hands until he grasps them and keeps her fingers tight around his for as long as he allows. It's enough he finally held her hand for that moment. It makes her happy.]
And ESP kitty too.
[Because it's not goodbye.
And she doesn't need to feel his heart to understand that this hurts him. He's losing his friend. Asking her to take care of a companion that could've given him comfort after monkey attacks and scary nights alone and it's-
A way to feel safe and have a constant source of comfort in the form of a friend that should be staying by his side. She knows the cat belongs in his lap, not hers. Belongs outside his house, not outside her shared tent. Knows his soft purr should be there for Ichimatsu to hear in the morning.
It's why a real answer is hard to muster up, though she was eager only seconds before. She knows the cat should be with Ichimatsu. Definitely wants to say it. But the purr reaches her ear and her fingers don't stop stroking the cat's soft back. She doesn't move to push the cat away and instead, shuts her eyes for a moment.
It makes her think if she keeps them closed and turns her head, just a bit, Seto might be right next to her. With a toy, a warm hand, and a smile that reminds her of the first day they met because he was always happy to see her.
It's a nice feeling.]
If it starts to hurt and you get very lonely, it's okay. I'll come find you. [Pause] We'll come find you.
[Her eyes open and her fingers stop stroking the cat's back because she wants to reach out for Ichimatsu's hand, just one more time. If he lets her, she doesn't do much-just rests her hand over his, not grasping it or trying to intertwine their fingers. She just wants to let him know he never has to be alone either. She's got a warm hand too that he can reach out for at any time.]
Thank you, Murasaki.
[And then-]
Murasaki-chan.
[GOOD BOYS DESERVE GOOD, INAPPROPRIATE HONORFICS.]